Today I would be teaching my first yoga class and feeling super super unprepared and out of shape. I taught at school with all english speaking teachers which took the pressure off of the language barrier but never having taught before, I was terrified. I got up and went through the sequence writing every posture with que(how you get the person in the position) and not practicing from an english instructor for a month I just felt rusty.
Already on edge, I got to FaceTime with my class in the States and that brought me to immediate tears as soon as I saw their smiling faces. In that moment I knew I had missed them and could feel the feeling was mutual. Being in the new school were the kids are at best partially well behaved, I miss each and every one of them for everything that they are. Corvian is such a great school and I will forever be grateful to them on showing me how amazing, genuine and caring teachers.
The rest of the day flew by with me giving my first assessment to 3rd grade, giving my first project to 4th and redoing a experiment I had horribly screwed up the week before with students in 5th. It was a day of firsts, mess ups and compassion for myself.
4:30 rolls around after I had looked over my notes one last time, unfrozen lavender towelette and prepared lotion for an end of class foot rub. I would teach two students that were beginners and felt a calm come over me. God is has a plan and my comfort with two people was perfect. I couldn't have plan this better. I could do this and would do this no matter what. There it went. 5:30 rolled around and I had timed it perfectly with savasana. Music seemed to work well and queing was okay. I think my pace was a little slow but the feedback that I got was very positive. They said they would come back. I am tickled pink and can not explain how excited I am to have conquered this fear. I have to send love to all my yogi friends, classmates and most of all my teachers for working with me so patiently these past five months. Today is a good day and to put a cherry on top I got to watch this amazing sunset below. I left my students with one thing "First do the necessary, then do the possible and suddenly the impossible is happening"- St. Fracsis.