Its crazy how easily we can forget what we just learned and revert back to our old ways. I have been procrastinating on writing this paper, including writing this post right now instead of doing it. haha. What I am figuring out in this moment is that I am a good writer that is capable of writing to a master's level. I can do this without fear of "not being good enough". I have grown as a writer without being graded in the academic setting but I just caught myself editing my first paper knowning I had already turned it in for the final draft(I will get to resubmit it at the end of semester so its not wasted edits). Unknowingly, I have established a good habit of editing and re-editing. I will be able to do this if I do not procrastinate based on a old fear and start enjoying the process. I am trying to teach my kids that if you take the time during an experiment and not just rush to the end you will learn more. Maybe I need to enjoy the writing process and not just want it to be over already.
Just to set up the scene on where I am writing this...sitting in the living room with Maca and a friend that is studying for a sociology exam on the universtiy level. They are so cute with their random banter of boys and food intertwined with memorization of facts that will be addressed on the exam. I remember those days of cramming and by lunch time the next day, not remember a single thing. Undergrad sometimes seems so long ago but moments like these brings back the long nights in the library, cafeteria food, and silly laughs with my best friend, lo. Speaking of reflecting this upcoming week will be one to remember. My brother-in-law, Alex is coming to visit me on Tuesday and will be able to celebrate my 25th birthday on Thursday. Kids at school thought that I was 19 years old, sure I will take that!! 25 is half way to 50 and that sounds cra cra! BUT probably for the first time in a long time, I feel like I have accomplished something in this last year. Sounds like a good next post!